It's not my fault

It's not my fault. Whew, that is a weight off my shoulders. All of these things going on within my body that I have no control over and for years no reason that I could come up with until now. Low testosterone. #lowtestosterone

This is the start of my journey as of January 22nd 2020 : 

10 days ago I got my first testosterone therapy and I'm anxiously awaiting the effects which can take 4 weeks but the peak of the effects will be 3-6 months.
Looking back now I can see symptom after symptom that has been adding up and never even thought about hormones being the culprit until recently.
I've been working out consistently for 6 years now, changing up my workouts and trying new ways of eating and getting results but those results have steadily declined.
I even switched from my at home workouts to hitting the gym and lifting weights only and got discouraged because after many months of lifting 5 times a week there was no change with muscle growth, weight loss, inches. As a woman who is always working on her fitness it becomes discouraging after working hard and seeing nothing.
(💡light bulb moment now, lack of muscle growth)

After that run of daily gym workouts I decided to go back to what I loved which was working out at home with a virtual trainer but I noticed my weight has increased about 10 pounds from my "normal" weight. Most of my adult life I've been around 135-140 and I hit as low as 129 after a 21 day cleanse I did a couple of years ago. This past year I've been sitting around 150 and holding with a few pounds fluctuating depending on nutrition. I'm still working out everyday, I still eat well and I am maintaining but I don't feel like this is my best if that makes sense
(💡light bulb, weight gain, trouble losing weight)

I didn't think much about either of those because I'm a woman, I just turned 40 this is just what happens, this is my new norm. Or is it?
I'm not even kidding when I say that my libido took a major screeching halt like brakes were thrown on all of a sudden. Like one day on then light switch turned off and power was out and this was like a flashing sign telling me something ain't right. This was not like me, this was not my norm, what the heck is going on?
(💡light bulb , I need to have my hormones checked)

This was not my fault. As a wife and a woman turning 40 it startled me. It worried me. This can't be my new norm. Thankfully my husband urged me to get my levels checked (for more reasons than the major one ha) He's been on testosterone therapy for years now and I have seen a major change in him and I can't keep up even though I try my hardest.

Unfortunately this is not something your doctor informs you about. It's not something they routinely test for. Unless you are entering menopause it's unlikely you will even know your levels unless you specifically ask and explain all your symptoms. And you may have to pay out of pocket because insurance doesn't deem hormone therapy necessary for women which is ridiculous.

My husband shared a video with me that was so eye opening. It's coming from a male obgyn talking about his wife, himself, and their marriage and how this little change in hormones changed their lives and marriage. I'll share in the comments.

I'll share more about my journey as I go through it. 10 days in I'm not feeling it just yet except the 3 days of irritability that was obvious to me and those around me. But I can't wait to actually feel the effects and share all about it.

If this sounds like you, schedule an appointment and request for your hormone levels to be checked, it may be the best decision of your life.